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Losing
Defeatbrings me back to authenticity.When I am vulnerable,I am awake. Why seek successwhen successmost certainlyself-deceives? Text and image © 2012 by Dirk deVries. All rights reserved. Continue reading
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The Border of Language
I like lurking at the border of language,where the tongue blurs, slurs with vagueness. I hover here at the brink of Eden,eager to taste my own marrow. Text and image © 2012 by Dirk deVries. All rights reserved. Continue reading
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Dreaming
The Transcendentinvades my dream–bulldozes the fences,mows down the weeds,blows out the windows,reveals all,and says,"Here–here is what's real,thriving and alive in your subconscious:believe it;embrace it." And I awakentransformed. Text and image © 2012 by Dirk deVries. All rights reserved. Continue reading
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Queen of the Night
The Queen of the Nightrules my subconscious,orchestrates my dreaming,allows what is necessary to rise to the surface,holds in the wings what I'm yet unable to handle. I have no choicebut to trust her;she is God's emissary,the high priestessof… Continue reading
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Pridefest 1
Had I exitedthe straight jacketof faux-straightnessin my early 20s,two questions arise: Would I be alive?(That was pre-AIDS.) And would I have had the gutsto ride nearly naked on a floatwhile Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive"blasted to a cheerful, cheering crowd? Let's… Continue reading
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Living with Ghosts
We all live with ghosts. They are the people we see through,pretending they don't exist. They may be in our house,on the bus,or in the next cubicle at the office. We sit beside them in church,at the ball game,or in… Continue reading
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Rain 2
Thomas Merton speaks poeticallyof the "voice" of the rain:"…all that speech pouring down,selling nothing,judging nobody,drenching…" I delight in rain's intentional purposelessness. "I am here for my own sake,"says the rain."I am eternal.I am life. "Close your eyes and listen:hiss, plash,… Continue reading
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PB&J
We make 100 PB&J sandwiches,gently spreading crunchy peanut butteron donated white bread(which tears easily given the fragility of the breadand the stiffness of the peanut butter). The other slice of breadwe coat with squeezable grape jelly(squeezability speeds up the process).… Continue reading
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A Day with the Cats
I spend the day at home with my cats,doing exactly what they do:I sleep when they sleep;I eat when they eat(from my own dish on the kitchen floor);I play when they play;I remain on all fours,keeping as much as possibleat floor… Continue reading
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The Spider
The spider sits on a twigwhere the woods give wayto the sea's ragged edge.The moon, glowing like mother-of -pearl,has risen from the watery horizon. Spin me a web,"I say,"from here to the tranquil lakes of the moon,that I may ascendto… Continue reading